internshipless and probably on my way to graduating next semester, I am still going to China.
On hindsight, I hope I don't regret my choices. This semester has been quite a mess, alot like Amazing Race with its thrills and spills. Sometimes you plan too much and you hope things go according to your plan because you're working towards a goal but things just gooo wrooonggg and you're not sure even where to start, or heck, where to stop - well i'm in that fix now. except for some reason, i don't feel flustered or lost or anything.
my life is somewhat in a mess now. having done (really) badly for a particular module, I am looking at the probability that I might have to leg it and leave school, but in a way I'm praying that God ( or some divine ) works his miracle because I am so adverse to the working world. Then again, looking at my friendThis s who are making plans to forge ahead to do what they want, or rather, what the economy can afford them, makes me feel like graduating as well. it's like a big step into the world of independence and rewards, where the stakes are raised even higher and the chips are not always on the table - it's all very exciting and grown-up and dangerous and mysterious. i know it might sound mad, but i think if I am left without a choice, I would quite happy to graduate. I've never been much of the academic type, although I try my best.
i'm also left with too many loose ends untied : I've yet to look for a private driving coach, so despite failing my TP ten million times, I've not gotten my driving license yet. My father won't give up nagging till I get my license, and I supposed in eventuality I have to get it anyway, so I'm leaving that till when I'm back from China.
this is the first summer that I've not had any plans, be it career wise or anything-wise, and well, i think i'll just seat along for the ride.
something i've wanted to do for a long, long time.
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